<3 I will praise You in the waiting.

Well everyone knows about me waiting for my results to check up on the heart :) I wasn't going to make a entry about it, but I've felt led to. so here goes somethin' ... =]

I feel so at peace with my life right now. But there are moments where I don't want to wait, just like everyone else. I know God's taken care of me all my life, and He wont stop 22 years later. He loves me a lot. Ultimately I want everything I do, big or small, to give God credit. He's done so much for me. So while kind of laying back unsure (not confused) of God's plan, I opened my Bible up to James 5:16 and it says..
Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.

I memorized that verse off the bat. I wanted that verse to stick with me all day long, and that verse has popped into my head for days bringing me much comfort. I fixed the strings on the guitar and picked it up again (though I'm not at all a "well-playing" guitarist), God spoke to my heart and I was able to come so close to Him; like a child sits on his/her fathers lap. I was able to write lyrics and here they are:
Take my selfish heart, O God, make me new God, make me new
Take my faith God; it's weak, let me ride on Your wings
Give Your presence God, to me, let me know You wont leave
Heal my heart God, heal me, let my life bring You glory...

So I put those lyrics to a few chords on the guitar (G,Em, and D,C). It was so nice being able to give my worried thoughts back to God in a worshipful way. I can be so selfish in giving *everything* to God. It's so easy to say we're giving our all but to really mean it and follow through when God could use you, is a totally different story.
I hope you find encouragement in this and God is glorified ultimately :) He's amazing. We serve a power, faithful, loving God.
Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? there is no searching of his understanding. -Isaiah 40:28

But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. -Isaiah 40:31

May God work through you and use you to further His Kingdom :)

Love always,Kayla

off to neverland to find pete!

hey all you bloggers.
just thought i would give a little update on my life. i went to the big ticket festival last thursday and we got back home on sunday. it was alot of fun! i have some photos but i left my camera in someones car up there, unfortunately, and will get it mailed back to me soon.. and should be able to post some photographs! yay.
i'm reading this book called probing through philippians, and another book that i have not started yet, by theodore epp. looks really good! so yesterday i was reading psalm 101. ill put a little highlight from something i am focusing on in my life, from this chapter...here goes something :)
"i will sing of lovingkindness and justice, to You o Lord, I will sing praises. i will give heed to the blameless way. when will You come to me? i will walk within my house in the integrity of my heart. i will set no worthless thing before my eyes; i will hate the work of those who fall away; it shall not fasten its grip on me. a perverse heart shall depart from me; i will know no evil."
psalm 101:1-4 its really laid on my heart to make sure i walk in that integrity and keep my ways blameless before God; and hate the way of those who are falling away. i think we just do not realize how detremental disobedience to God is for our life. in order to reach others and fulfill the great commission we must make sure we're keeping out ways blameless and our lives consistant with God's Words.
i just wanted to share that its so important. i hope they help everyone who is reading this to grow :)

its really hot outside today. i hope we get our pool liner so we can go swimming here soon. that would be amazing! oh! I think I should fix my guitar strings to actually start playing again. i love worship music.. plus mari has been making me a little jealous when I call and shes playing some of our favorite songs *ehem* and i can't tryt and play with her lol
well i'm off to never neverland! (haha I don't know why I say that) ill let you know if I run into peter pan!
*K

hoop there it is!

Ooo. I know :)

Hello hello.
What is there new to say? Absolutely nothing. But why not post about nothing, isn't that what people do with blogs these days? :) lol. 13 days until Colorado/Nebraska. I cannot wait! It'll be so much fun. My friends that live in TN will be arriving next week; i'm pretty excited. It is her baby shower. yay! I love babies. I cannot wait to be married and have some of my own ;)
Which brings me to a thought I could write about. I've been kind of a bit distraught over what in the world God wants me to do these days. What will I do when I'm done with this education. I can't help but wonder. I was almost a bit discouraged wondering if I'll be able to help little children overseas learn important things, or what I will be doing. The next day, I was listening to this guy on the Christian radio who had called in, pouring his heart out about how he surrendered his whole life and is begging God to use him in a profound way but it never seems to happen for him. He didn't want his 9-5 job, he wanted to go some place, do something crazy cool with his life for Christ. He said he didn't "get God". I'm sitting there the whole time thinking, "Buddy, are you walking around blinded? Do you not get that God has you at that 9-5 for a reason, and is using you daily!". I suddenly felt VERY foolish. Do I not understand that this is where God wants me momentarily, serving Him from where I am at currently. I have this big picture in my head of just helping little children in a far away place know Jesus, and forget that it doesn't always have to be far away. God chooses some people to go to those far away places, and some to stay near home. It was definitely God using that man's call into the radio station to help me realized I am being used, just not in the way I have pictured in my head right now. Maybe someday, Lord willing, I will be allowed to go overseas and help...but for now, I'm trying to follow Paul's example of being content in where God has me (Philippians 4).
May the God who has saved my very soul, bring you close to His heart.
Love always...k.

Rainbows :)

"As the appearance of the rainbow in the clouds on a rainy day, so was the appearance of the surrounding radiance. Such was the appearance of the likeness of the glory of the Lord. And when I saw it, I fell on my face and heard a voice speaking." Ezekiel 1:28 :-)

There once was a lady who lived in a shoe...

Ehem.
I just decided to update this little blog of mine mainly because I want to pretend I have a life outside of talking to Mari, haha. Yeah right! :)
What is there to say? Well, next month on the 21st, I get to visit Amariah! I am flying into Denver and Mari is picking me up from the Denver airport, along with some friends, and we will go to Nebraska. We're going to buy pretty fancy dresses and go out to dinner mainly because nobody takes us out to dinner, and we never get to dress up! Boo! Dot dada!

My day :)

I haven't written in awhile... Mainly because I can't seem to log into my blog from the computer at home (I'm at the library).

Anyways! I went to Hebrew today and afterwards my teacher and I went to the Holocaust museum. I had been wanting to go for quite awhile, and who better to go for a tour with then a Jewish person right? :)

It was so ... I just can't seem to find words to describe it. It just makes you sick to your stomach thinking of how many people can disregard human life that way. I saw skinny, nude bodies being thrown into the backs of trucks, being scooped up into piles of dirt as if it was manure. It was just utterly disgusting. How can we be so apathetic in this world? How can we murder innocent people, children, and the unborn babies. This is beyond me.

Awhile back I was at the dentist and while getting a cleaning, got into a discussion with the dentist over me studying Hebrew.. which turned into the "reason" he thought for the hatred of the Jews. He plainly put that it was over money. Money? i thought about that for awhile. He said the cause was greed. hm. I realize that money was just a symptom to the problems in the world. The real problem is the heart.

Who deems ones life worthy, and another not? How can man be so cruel? There was a Holocaust surviver that spoke afterwards. He spoke of the brutal beatings that they got, how their names were taken away from them because they were no longer considered a human being, the lack of food, or sometimes the people would be "generous" and give them more food that happened to be very salty, and not give them any water to drink. There were "train" things you can stand in resembling the ones they would have traveled in. This man in particular, had the choice to go with his father, or his mother and the children. He chose his father (along with his younger brother), which ended up being the best choice, because his mother and sisters/children were killed in the gas chamber.

I just wanted to share this with you all. Really pray for those lost out there, it isn't just Hitler that was evil. Babies are being aborted on a daily basis because they are deemed worthless, as well as the handicapped...in our very nation we live in! But to have a memorial/museum acknowledging the innocent lives lost in that manner would be simply absurd here..

For now,

Kayla