Your Shepherds staff comforts me...

Shalom! I really ponder if any one reads this anymore. Hm. :) I really don't care, I am just going to write what is on my mind. I've been listening to some Jon Foreman, and I absolutely love his lyrics. Doesn't get much better than those. the song "House of God forever"...simply beautiful!!!
I'm memorizing 1 Corinthians 13 with Mari. I have been doing this thing to help me memorize, where I just write one verse on the palm of my hand so I will see it all the day long :]

Deut. 6:6-9 (ESV) And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. [7] You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise. [8] You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. [9] You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates.

Now, it just has been on my heart lately to take scriptures and get them remembered in my head. If they're not on my heart, I could never teach them diligently to my children one day. I love how it says to talk about them while sitting down and walking by the way, when we're laying down and when we wake up. Augh! I want to be that. I want to have God's Words so in my mind that its the main thing I talk about, because that would reflect my love for the Lord even more! Amen. :]
So when it says they shall be frontlets between your eyes, and God was telling them to write them on the doorposts on their houses, it was for them to always have His words on their mind, and in their hearts. I just love that scripture!!! So, pray for me. Pray God helps me with this memorizing and that I do it with all the diligence I have in me. I can't take a breathe without God giving in to me, so He deserves everything within myself.

Love always,
Kayla :)

Dear Theodore Garvey

I keep writing blog posts and getting two sentences in, and deleting it. I guess my life is just so exciting, I can't sit still and contain myself into collective thoughts. Yeah, that's it :) it seems God is still just teaching me one day at a time and shaping me with things He's already been doing in my life. It's almost like I keep learning the same line of things, or being reminded of them anyway, over again; such as Patience, perseverance, long-suffering, diligence, love; things of that nature. I was reading Malachi 3, great chapter. I've read it a few times lately. It's so neat that when we give God our all financially, spiritually,physically, emotionally-all our whole self, He opens the flood gates and blesses us beyond belief! I see it happening within me. Even within tithing more than required, God sends this huge boat of blessing and you can't help but smile and praise God over again. :)

You may wonder what the title of this is about, I wrote my friend a love letter as a joke to make her laugh, and I signed his name Theodore Garvey :)
I am a great friend huh! haha. Better go!
Love,
K-la

<3 I will praise You in the waiting.

Well everyone knows about me waiting for my results to check up on the heart :) I wasn't going to make a entry about it, but I've felt led to. so here goes somethin' ... =]

I feel so at peace with my life right now. But there are moments where I don't want to wait, just like everyone else. I know God's taken care of me all my life, and He wont stop 22 years later. He loves me a lot. Ultimately I want everything I do, big or small, to give God credit. He's done so much for me. So while kind of laying back unsure (not confused) of God's plan, I opened my Bible up to James 5:16 and it says..
Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.

I memorized that verse off the bat. I wanted that verse to stick with me all day long, and that verse has popped into my head for days bringing me much comfort. I fixed the strings on the guitar and picked it up again (though I'm not at all a "well-playing" guitarist), God spoke to my heart and I was able to come so close to Him; like a child sits on his/her fathers lap. I was able to write lyrics and here they are:
Take my selfish heart, O God, make me new God, make me new
Take my faith God; it's weak, let me ride on Your wings
Give Your presence God, to me, let me know You wont leave
Heal my heart God, heal me, let my life bring You glory...

So I put those lyrics to a few chords on the guitar (G,Em, and D,C). It was so nice being able to give my worried thoughts back to God in a worshipful way. I can be so selfish in giving *everything* to God. It's so easy to say we're giving our all but to really mean it and follow through when God could use you, is a totally different story.
I hope you find encouragement in this and God is glorified ultimately :) He's amazing. We serve a power, faithful, loving God.
Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? there is no searching of his understanding. -Isaiah 40:28

But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. -Isaiah 40:31

May God work through you and use you to further His Kingdom :)

Love always,Kayla

off to neverland to find pete!

hey all you bloggers.
just thought i would give a little update on my life. i went to the big ticket festival last thursday and we got back home on sunday. it was alot of fun! i have some photos but i left my camera in someones car up there, unfortunately, and will get it mailed back to me soon.. and should be able to post some photographs! yay.
i'm reading this book called probing through philippians, and another book that i have not started yet, by theodore epp. looks really good! so yesterday i was reading psalm 101. ill put a little highlight from something i am focusing on in my life, from this chapter...here goes something :)
"i will sing of lovingkindness and justice, to You o Lord, I will sing praises. i will give heed to the blameless way. when will You come to me? i will walk within my house in the integrity of my heart. i will set no worthless thing before my eyes; i will hate the work of those who fall away; it shall not fasten its grip on me. a perverse heart shall depart from me; i will know no evil."
psalm 101:1-4 its really laid on my heart to make sure i walk in that integrity and keep my ways blameless before God; and hate the way of those who are falling away. i think we just do not realize how detremental disobedience to God is for our life. in order to reach others and fulfill the great commission we must make sure we're keeping out ways blameless and our lives consistant with God's Words.
i just wanted to share that its so important. i hope they help everyone who is reading this to grow :)

its really hot outside today. i hope we get our pool liner so we can go swimming here soon. that would be amazing! oh! I think I should fix my guitar strings to actually start playing again. i love worship music.. plus mari has been making me a little jealous when I call and shes playing some of our favorite songs *ehem* and i can't tryt and play with her lol
well i'm off to never neverland! (haha I don't know why I say that) ill let you know if I run into peter pan!
*K

hoop there it is!

Ooo. I know :)

Hello hello.
What is there new to say? Absolutely nothing. But why not post about nothing, isn't that what people do with blogs these days? :) lol. 13 days until Colorado/Nebraska. I cannot wait! It'll be so much fun. My friends that live in TN will be arriving next week; i'm pretty excited. It is her baby shower. yay! I love babies. I cannot wait to be married and have some of my own ;)
Which brings me to a thought I could write about. I've been kind of a bit distraught over what in the world God wants me to do these days. What will I do when I'm done with this education. I can't help but wonder. I was almost a bit discouraged wondering if I'll be able to help little children overseas learn important things, or what I will be doing. The next day, I was listening to this guy on the Christian radio who had called in, pouring his heart out about how he surrendered his whole life and is begging God to use him in a profound way but it never seems to happen for him. He didn't want his 9-5 job, he wanted to go some place, do something crazy cool with his life for Christ. He said he didn't "get God". I'm sitting there the whole time thinking, "Buddy, are you walking around blinded? Do you not get that God has you at that 9-5 for a reason, and is using you daily!". I suddenly felt VERY foolish. Do I not understand that this is where God wants me momentarily, serving Him from where I am at currently. I have this big picture in my head of just helping little children in a far away place know Jesus, and forget that it doesn't always have to be far away. God chooses some people to go to those far away places, and some to stay near home. It was definitely God using that man's call into the radio station to help me realized I am being used, just not in the way I have pictured in my head right now. Maybe someday, Lord willing, I will be allowed to go overseas and help...but for now, I'm trying to follow Paul's example of being content in where God has me (Philippians 4).
May the God who has saved my very soul, bring you close to His heart.
Love always...k.

Rainbows :)

"As the appearance of the rainbow in the clouds on a rainy day, so was the appearance of the surrounding radiance. Such was the appearance of the likeness of the glory of the Lord. And when I saw it, I fell on my face and heard a voice speaking." Ezekiel 1:28 :-)

There once was a lady who lived in a shoe...

Ehem.
I just decided to update this little blog of mine mainly because I want to pretend I have a life outside of talking to Mari, haha. Yeah right! :)
What is there to say? Well, next month on the 21st, I get to visit Amariah! I am flying into Denver and Mari is picking me up from the Denver airport, along with some friends, and we will go to Nebraska. We're going to buy pretty fancy dresses and go out to dinner mainly because nobody takes us out to dinner, and we never get to dress up! Boo! Dot dada!

My day :)

I haven't written in awhile... Mainly because I can't seem to log into my blog from the computer at home (I'm at the library).

Anyways! I went to Hebrew today and afterwards my teacher and I went to the Holocaust museum. I had been wanting to go for quite awhile, and who better to go for a tour with then a Jewish person right? :)

It was so ... I just can't seem to find words to describe it. It just makes you sick to your stomach thinking of how many people can disregard human life that way. I saw skinny, nude bodies being thrown into the backs of trucks, being scooped up into piles of dirt as if it was manure. It was just utterly disgusting. How can we be so apathetic in this world? How can we murder innocent people, children, and the unborn babies. This is beyond me.

Awhile back I was at the dentist and while getting a cleaning, got into a discussion with the dentist over me studying Hebrew.. which turned into the "reason" he thought for the hatred of the Jews. He plainly put that it was over money. Money? i thought about that for awhile. He said the cause was greed. hm. I realize that money was just a symptom to the problems in the world. The real problem is the heart.

Who deems ones life worthy, and another not? How can man be so cruel? There was a Holocaust surviver that spoke afterwards. He spoke of the brutal beatings that they got, how their names were taken away from them because they were no longer considered a human being, the lack of food, or sometimes the people would be "generous" and give them more food that happened to be very salty, and not give them any water to drink. There were "train" things you can stand in resembling the ones they would have traveled in. This man in particular, had the choice to go with his father, or his mother and the children. He chose his father (along with his younger brother), which ended up being the best choice, because his mother and sisters/children were killed in the gas chamber.

I just wanted to share this with you all. Really pray for those lost out there, it isn't just Hitler that was evil. Babies are being aborted on a daily basis because they are deemed worthless, as well as the handicapped...in our very nation we live in! But to have a memorial/museum acknowledging the innocent lives lost in that manner would be simply absurd here..

For now,

Kayla

Uplifted. :]

You wanted a post, so you will get about 40 different thoughts bunched into one post. As if this brain of mine is pouring out what it is thinking of.

1st thought, God has taught my heart to persevere even when I feel like giving up. Honestly, I am the sort of person who starts things, and doesn't pursue it enough to finish it. I would love to change that about me. I want to pursue something with my whole heart; what good would it be if I only gave something half of my heart? I don't think there is a point to it.
2Nd thought I've felt God move me toward sharing His Son's love for certain people, and I'd try so hard but I have been shown that God only wanted me to be the seed dropper, and allow Him to do the work. I have learned that becoming emotionally attached to those "projects" is not healthy, because you lose sight of what God is trying to do because you're trying to take over the "project" yourself. I have stepped away from this "project" and am waiting to see the Lord work to build it and make it into something beautiful. I'll tell you, the letting go is probably the hardest thing to do. But it is a sense of peace I get after doing what God tells me to, that is indescribable and one of the best feelings in the world.
3rd thought, I'm slowly able to get to know our relatives through our family tree. It's pretty cool getting to know cousins you had no idea you had, or have not talked to in quite awhile.
4th I have pretty much learned the song "Give us clean hands", so I can play it on Sunday. It's coming along. P e r s e v e r a n c e
"For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God, you may receive what was promised."Hebrews 10:36 NASB

"Humiliated, bruised and scarred, hung on a tree just to show us His love." random lyrics I made up on the guitar :]
Love always,
K

Lover.

God's love is so much more than what is written on the pages of scripture. It is in the very breath I take; I cannot take a breath without God giving in to me. We lose sight of what love actually is because we as humans distort the true meaning by our actions. Love isn't an emotional fix we get when we look someone in the eyes, nor is it the feeling we get when we can't wait to see them. Love is when you're so devoted to one. God devotes Himself to us through His actions. It is so much to comprehend. It's something that has been on my mind lately.

God describes in the Bible what that love is, and it is always described as an action one does, not a mooshie feeling we get when we set our eyes on someone. We've fell so far from the true meaning of love, and have forgotten what God describes as "love". For instance, "God so loved the world that He gave His only Son.." He "gave" His Son as a sacrifice. God showed His love through His actions.
I'll add the scriptures for "love" tomorrow.
Love always-K

What have I become?

ie. I'll add my own guitar photo, until then this is a random one.


I only write when I know I can make sense of something. So here we are friends. As you all know i'm studying Hebrew, and enjoy every minute of it. I'm moving along with it and I'm getting excited as I'm slowly but surely able to converse with my Israeli friends. God placed this language in my heart to learn and I think that is why I'm learning quickly, and enjoying it so much.





On the other hand, another thing every one of you know I absolutely love is.. music. REAL music, not mainstream stuff that is on the radio that everyones humming. Some really cool songs I'll recommend sometime. With all that said, I'm learning the guitar. I want to play worship music really bad. I'm teaching myself, and attempting to practice daily. I'm just learning chords, I can't read music, but hey this is better than not attempting at all.. in my opinion. I want everything I do to give glory to God. I've talked about seeking God and now i'm falling into this chapter of my life where I feel like I need to move on to not only seeking but attempting to give things He's given me talent for, a big whirl. I continue to seek after God's heart daily, some days more than others, but I'm doing it nonetheless and never will stop until I have no more breathe left. I think that is why I'm so intrigued by music; its like you have these messages stuck in your head and they just flow at the right moments for you to remember.. I love encouraging music.





Well here is my post. Here is what is laid on this heart. It's pretty simple, yet it all seems to be making sense.


Make heart goes out to the needy and those who are lost. :)


Love always.